Heartbreaking Moment 4-Year-Old Tells Mother "I'll Just Go To Heaven & Play Until You Get There"

Heartbreaking Moment 4-Year-Old Tells Mother “I’ll Just Go To Heaven & Play Until You Get There”

Heartbreaking Moment 4-Year-Old Tells Mother “I’ll Just Go To Heaven & Play Until You Get There”

    There is no pain comparable to losing a child. It is the worst thing any of us could imagine happening and those unfortunate enough to lose a child have all my sympathy and love.

    Two years ago Ruth Scully said goodbye to her little boy Nolan when he was just four years old. Nolan suffered from a rare form of soft tissue cancer known as Rhabdomyosarcoma, which he was diagnosed with when he was three.

    Though Nolan has very sadly passed his mother still continues to update his Facebook page and a page for donations in Nolan’s name is still active on the St Baldrick Website.

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    Ruth used Nolan’s Facebook page during her son’s tragically short life as a way to collate precious memories and document her child’s experience with this awful illness.

    She recounted some of the absolutely heartbreaking, bittersweet moments she shared with her little boy in his final days. On Nolan’s Facebook page she posted the following conversation she had with her son a few days before he passed;

    “I sat down with him and put my head up against his and had the following conversation:

    Me: Poot, it hurts to breathe doesn’t it?
    Nolan: Weeeelll…. yeah. 
    Me: You’re in a lot of pain aren’t you baby?
    Nolan: (looking down) Yeah. 
    Me: Poot, this Cancer stuff sucks. You don’t have to fight anymore. 
    Nolan: (Pure Happiness) I DONT??!! But I will for you Mommy!!
    Me: No Poot!! Is that what you have been doing?? Fighting for Mommy??
    Nolan: Well DUH!!
    Me: Nolan Ray, what is Mommy’s job?
    Nolan: To keep me SAFE! (With a big grin)
    Me: Honey … I can’t do that anymore here. The only way I can keep you safe is in Heaven. (My heart shattering)
    Nolan: Sooooo I’ll just go to Heaven and play until you get there! You’ll come right?
    Me: Absolutely!! You can’t get rid of Mommy that easy!!
    Nolan: Thank you Mommy!!! I’ll go play with Hunter and Brylee and Henry!!”

    (Image Credit: Facebook)

    I just cannot imagine the heartbreak of such a conversation with your child. I am in absolute awe of Ruth’s strength to go through this experience and yet still share with others her struggle and encourage them to bond in spite of grief.

    She went on to describe the final moments she shared with her son;

    About 9:00pm we were watching YouTube in bed (Peppa Pig actually) and I asked Nolan if I could get in the shower, as I was not allowed to leave him and Mommy had to be touching him at all times. He said “Ummmm ok Mommy. Have Uncle Chris come sit with me and I’ll turn this way so I can see you”. I stood at the bathroom door, turned to him and said “Keep looking right here Poot, I’ll be out in two seconds”. He smiled at me. I shut the bathroom door. They said the moment the bathroom door clicked he shut his eyes and went into a deep sleep, beginning the end of life passing.

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    Ruth went on to say;

    When I opened the bathroom door, his Team was surrounding his bed and every head turned and looked at me with tears in their eyes. They said “Ruth, he’s in a deep sleep. He can’t feel anything”. His respirations were extremely labored, his right lung had collapsed and his oxygen dropped.

    I ran and jumped into bed with him and put my hand on the right side of his face. Then a miracle that I will never forget happened….

    My angel took a breath, opened his eyes, smiled at me and said “I Love You Mommy”, turned his head towards me and at 11:54 pm Sgt. Rollin Nolan Scully passed away as I was singing “You are My Sunshine” in his ear.

    Words fail me. I am so profoundly sorry to hear about Nolan’s passing. Though his life was far too short it seems he was blessed with a truly loving mother and amazing support network.

    Ruth fondly remembers her child;

    He woke up out of a coma to say he loved me with a smile on his face! My son died a Hero. He brought Communities together, different occupations, made a difference in people’s lives all around the world. He was a warrior who died with dignity and love to the last second.

    What a beautiful commemoration of this little angels life.

    (Image Credit: Facebook)

    Bless this beautiful child and his wonderful family.

    Please, if you are able to, do consider donating to St Baldrick’s or visiting Nolan’s Facebook page to keep up to date with how you can help in whatever way you can. My thoughts and prayers go out to Nolan’s amazing family.